37 days to 30, here we go!

37 days until I turn 30.

 Not that I have been counting down for the last two years or anything.  But I am not scared of 30. In fact I am ready to embrace it!  I am just not where I thought I would be in life as I approach the age that seemed ancient to me not so long ago.  But where did I even think I would be?  I would say I DEFINITELY lived my twenties to the fullest and I’ve had amazing opportunities, but living for the moment and not for the future is what got me in this predicament.  (if  one would even call it that)  I have the best boyfriend, family and friends anyone could ask for, and when it comes down to it, that is all that really matters right?  So why am I writing this blog?  Basically I don’t feel like an adult…and I am not sure which step to take next.  I have been feeling a little scatterbrained and procrastinating on things that need to be taken care of, especially as a 30 year-old WOMAN!!  I need to get my ish together and I plan on using this as a kick in my rear that I need.  It all started last week…

I woke up abruptly at 5:30 am from a bizarre dream.  My dreams are often extremely vivid and I usually remember what happens when I wake up.  Then I try to decode the dreams and find the meaning of life in them, or figure out what dead relatives are trying to say to me or what kind of message my subconscious is trying to tell me.    In this dream I was with two people I knew from junior high/high school.   We were waiting in line to get tickets for some event I cant recall now, and I was drinking champagne from a bottle that once belonged to Marilyn Monroe.  Yes I know, very random.  I haven’t spoken to either people in my dream in years besides a quick hello at the 10-year reunion, but one of these people was someone who was very important to me a long time ago.  So what did it all mean?  Here is my breakdown of the dream:

The Marilyn Monroe bottle of champagne- Anyone that knows me knows how much I love champagne, so that part was easy to figure out.  I read somewhere that Angelina Jolie was going to play Marilyn Monroe in an upcoming movie and I was upset over that I guess.  I am a Marilyn fan, not a huge Angelina fan.  How is this related to anything else important? It isn’t!    

The people in my dream- One of them I have no rhyme or reason for their inclusion.  The other was someone who I used to be very close to and who has recently been deployed to Iraq.  I suspect he was included because I watched Transformers 2 right before falling asleep, which happens to have quite a few fighting scenes in the desert.  It's funny how the mind works.  Anyway I started thinking about what a sacrifice he has made for our country, being away from his wife and young children.  I admire all servicemen and women and I am very thankful for them.  They are making a difference and doing something meaningful with their lives.

So of course this got me thinking about myself and my life and the things I have have not accomplished.  Then came the snowball effect.  I started thinking about the small things that needed to be done later that day, then the bigger things that needed to be done this week/month and then the biggest things…I’ve been in Chicago for 6 months now, I need to seriously start looking for a job!  Or maybe no job, maybe volunteer for an animal shelter or work with a charity?  I need to start on my fundraising for the breast cancer walk I am doing!  I need health insurance!  I need to get to the dentist and the dermatologist!  Oh why did I tan so much when I was a teenager!?  I can’t believe I am about to be 30!  Where did the time go!?  Oh what about that dance class at the gym, I’ve been meaning to try?!  Wait how many days left until my birthday? Panic!  Then for some reason the idea of this blog popped into my head and I almost ran straight to the computer and started writing.

Almost.

Instead I slept for a few more hours before I started putting the ideas on paper.  And here is what I came up with.  30 days to 30.  I will start a blog to try and help me get my thoughts straight and some things done before I leave my twenties behind.  Every day for the 30 days before my birthday on OCTOBER 8^th I will complete a task that is on my to do list and write about it.  This is a great way for me to stop procrastinating as well as do a little self-discovery.  I like to be pushed outside of my comfort zone.  So now I embark on this adventure…I don’t have my entire list done yet so any advice (or dares haha) would be appreciated!  Stay tuned!  Oh yeah...I haven't written anything substantial since college so this should be an interesting project to say the least.